The blue sky there is no cloud one, the water which does not have the air and the turbidity which are clear.

Everything which enters into the eye was visible, cleanly.
I love am the red sandal wood.

Who is loved that times among other things when you think there are no me whom.

At one time, I of juvenile age the parent was busy with working together, they were most leaving states. You do what by your deciding, there is no other choice but to solve by your. Thing something which you consult, convey your own feeling without it being possible. the time it flows.
Therefore, the parents do not know at all I played with someone, physiology when came, it went somewhere.

You do not know method whether and, I how should have conveyed my own feeling.
Immature way, you became the adult.

You did the encounter, suddenly in such a, immature me.
As for him, friend of my friend. However it is common, they are introduction like ones.
As for that character, pride does not recognize the person high. It seemed like we.

Certainly, I think such a person that there is no expectation of becoming favorite.
So, it has been similar.
When you see objectively, I am such a person what. Therefore, you were fascinated.
You could think one one conduct and word dearly.

The woman awakes the time.
“We want staring just me”

Such a feeling was held.


It continues
No.1 by [yu] or C (30♀OY19BH) 08/03/1600: 32
Association beginning. the night of summer, was invited in him and rode in the car and continued to run either applying without. “. We and, to be attached?”, he who stops the car called to me. “You obtain and.” how it probably is the disappointing reply. The first word “you obtain and” are how. Truth was the expectation where the word which conveys feeling is prepared. The time either 3 minutes probably will not pass between 2. Conversation changed. Is he began the story which is not the [wa] potato. Also 1 hours it passes, or “probably will return?” I quarried out. “It returns already? [so] [tsu]. It doesn't associate with we seriously?”“Well. I to damage want the scar unintentionally and or, would like am not. Therefore his person it does not enter.”Although we like, although that it is, the answering which was called. “? With somethingwe, however you do not know, whether what kind of you associated the other person makes simultaneous, it is. Not to be wrong it makes important.”The wax and the self-confidence which were wrapped from somewhere. With such a feeling while, I answered. “Excessiveness. As for the person who can understand me it is not and, it is troublesome.”As for me, when lie it is attached, the hand moves selfishly. It grasps, grasps the finger and closes. He had penetrated. “All right” he said in strong tone.
No.2 by [yu] or C (30♀OY19BH) 08/03/1609: 18
With the cowardly person, gentleness it is not.
You were recognized even by your.

The kana which it can keep associating.


Holding insecure feeling, as for the word which it conveys to him

“You think and solve”


[a], truly troublesome character.

Why, 'to be,' you probably cannot say. To presume, or it is not possible to depend. Well, it is not possible, the method it is without of being, doing is not recognized, it is.


“You think, solving,”
He said with the smiling face.
He than me, one and two is on.

“The [u] it is. In addition don't you think?”

I would like to meet say one true feeling which is cursed 'and'

Don't you think? equal -> 'and'
Don't you think? the character which is refracted. and you probably will play it is not don't you think? and.


When it returns to the home, the inside of my head was just calculation.
When the next it meets, like this you probably will say.
Well, when like this you say, it is not transmitted. It is useless, such a word.


The inside of [kokoro] which is close to romantic love deviation value 0 delusion just thing.

Although speaking gently just it is.
No.3 by [yu] or C (30♀OY19BH) 08/03/1609: 33
It met to him 4 days later.


It probably will go to some eating, as for present work. it is during that conversation which does the story which is not the [wa] potato the reply, in my head 'how it probably will be, just'.


As for answering although it has been decided, the word which is conveyed sees and there is no handle and others.


It is different, it is different.
Therefore such, also the flow of conversation will have been awkward.

“It is tiredit returns?”
He has conjectured me.


“The [u] [u] it is. The [u] it is. It is different.”
What you say the [ro] which is. me.



“It is different. We ask may.”Strange word, sprang out from me.


“? What? How [yu] [u] thing?”
Wonder so the face doing, it looks me and he who is packed has laughed securely.


“Entrust dissolving”


It has been transmitted it is the shelf.
Perhaps, looking at strange me, preparing answering.


Then association it just began conversation, the junior high school student like feeling was difference it is not.
No.4 by [yu] or C (30♀OY19BH) 08/03/1609: 46
That work was business.
The time when work ends normally, from 10 o'clock 11 o'clock. The flex time, earth day and celebration national holiday were the day off mainly.


As for me office work of the company where the service industry is small. 8:30 it starts in and at 5 o'clock ends, but you do not rest earth day.


Even with overstraining, it set to that time and it reached the point where also the day off adjusts to him.

We would like to meet.
So the feeling which is thought, made by your.

From my apartment, to that apartment by car 1 hour 30 minutes. That, midway making use of high speed story.


So, as for the day when there is work in the following day as for staying it was not.


Almost there was no thing where he comes to my apartment.
It meets somewhere, whether I go. association continuously every goes with 1 month 2 months, waiting kept becoming many.

As for me as for waiting for him it was not pain. It is like learning from infancy, waiting is utilized.

Therefore work.
It is slow, it is.

So you think.
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No.6 by [yu] or C (30♀OY19BH) 08/03/1623: 19
So. that was no more than a thinking which by his beautifies.


The woman was separately in him.



. You do not know you thought which in the favorite.


While at least, being called in the home, there is a room even in me.


In the shadow of such a woman, the inclination which in order the odor [wa] to do my existence leaves the private property in that room was done.

“The toothbrush forgetting, the [tsu] it is”
“The pierced earring you drop”

He seems that is checked. So, way it is not understood anymore in the shadow 1.


In me, envy heart of hideous extent had started budding.
No.7 by [yu] or C (30♀OY19BH) 08/03/1712: 44
There is no room in [kokoro].


Already the shadow 1.
Why that time is taken from me.

[yurusenai].


Without seeing or verifying in him.

Day by day, it reaches the point where it goes obstinately and with the telephone and the mail “is somewhere?”Kept increasing.


If it met, it was usual he.


. It divided with the shadow?


The desire which does not have applying.


I had pushed the law of my romantic love.

When you say that '10 we like, when 10 we like, we want returning'
'The barometer of love must be the same level,'


Because 1 1 people, extent and shape of love are different, although it is something which draws close you thought that everything that we would like to try thinks.
No.8 by [yu] or C (30♀OY19BH) 08/03/1712: 59
Gradually it keeps tightening that feeling.

While being understood, it could not stop.

That became the love which bends and because he leaves from the shadow designated the meal as high calorie and Sawayama gave and could fatten.
“As for you, the [wa] which is the filter losing weight too much which is done. As for man dignity oral [ya]”
With it continued to say, after the food the fruit where the degree of sugar is high it gave the doughnut and also sweet ones provided.


It was natural for he to get fat.
That body how was produced with my circumstance.


The [wa] where also the shadow leaves now.


I who stand in the kitchen had chuckled.
When you see from the edge. certainly, it probably is visible in demon.


Until he destroys physical condition, as for me not becoming aware, it was.


When “just a little it runs, breath is cut off, it is. Sleeping, it is painful and.”
He said.


“So. In order remainder not to change, however it is visible.”
While moving the hand finely, you said.


The [ro] because “it got fat. However you, you do not say, the hand moving.. the [ru]”


He collapsed.
No.9 by [yu] or C (30♀OY19BH) 08/03/1713: 19
While in one room of the hospital, looking at the face simply in that side, it was sat down.

“[u]. [u] [tsu]”
The kind of voice where he groans was sent.

“Perceived?”

. The [me] it is do



As for I having done, there is no thing which separates the shadow and [te] he it just is damaged.


It will not do the shadow or, knowing such as the fact that he collapses.


“Please pay attention to the meal from the teacher. It becomes the diabetes. At least, the blood is [dorodoro]. Change of sudden weight they are light myocardial blockage like ones, but.”
With he who said even one time did not look at my one.
No.10 by [yu] or C (30♀OY19BH) 08/03/1714: 48
Perhaps in him it is understood.

The envy which goes too far with excessive love.


Then in order for I to commute to nursing self-sacrifice and to cure also the meal and to become quickly good you endeavored.


When he dies, there is no meaning.


Way become just my ones.

It was to ask always.
The time, you envied in even busy work.


After he collapsing, him it stopped the fact that it can hurt.


That and this from [aishiteru].
No.11 by [yu] or C (30♀OY19BH) 08/03/1715: 04
Association beginning, new that birthday had approached nearby.


[naniwoshiteageyou]


The foot stops with the passing shop. In order to choose the present.


This and that match, probably will be.


You make birthday to infancy celebrate as for there was no I.
One which passes, the shortcake was lifted to the small plate.
There is no either candle.


As for such a me, big cake and wine and champagne.
In order to make Sawayama's cooking, it prepared in various ways.


Don't you think? “don't you think? the [e], already immediately it is birthday. Work it cannot end quickly? Sawayama we would like us to celebrate.”You said with the voice where the child is and is tomorrow being enough distantly, in extent, the plain gauze.

“There is no [wa] can”


Tension of [watashi] it was the truth opposite.


'[hodo] which birthday how you celebrate it is not rubbed. Every year it comes, it rubbed and.'
With the word just cup.
No.12 by [yu] or C (30♀OY19BH) 08/03/1717: 28
Shadow?
Being the shadow?

In the form which is close to delusion in the head, envy heart started smoking.


The husband who is and the [ya], is different.
As warned by your, the neck was shaken.


When in addition. is.


[doushiyou]


- The birthday day -

Sawayama's baggage was held, I waited before that room.
There is a key. So without entering, it waited.

When he returns with the woman and 2 people.


So, when you think, it waited before the entryway which is directly chased than in the room.
No.13 by [yu] or C (30♀OY19BH) 08/03/1717: 36
It turned 0 o'clock.


After all, he did not return.


You are not wrong. It is the woman!
I the neck [darari] the present put in place all ones which are prepared in the lowering entrance and went away from that place.



Why my disturbance is done



Low voice echoed in [kokoro].


[yurusenai]


As for him, the time still it was in the customer and simultaneous.


Without becoming aware in [kokoro] to which I keep changing.
No.14 by [yu] or C (30♀OY19BH) 08/03/1718: 37
For a while, I did not insert communication in him.

I, had been about that [kokoro] probably becomes two.

@ [yurusanai]


A simultaneous [niitai]


When you want to think calmly.
Because the error which by his deviates in envy commits is not repeated.


When it is together, it becomes useless

Well, we would like to be together


When truth to scream cries and wants.
When all tears in the body can be produced, when you want to think that certainly hateful by your [sayonara] it is possible.



So, [kokoro] which divides brought feeling separately.


It tried inserting communication after a long time.
“It is busy?”

It tries hearing brusquely.


“The [u] it is. Being required the number from the company, the [te]. In order to think, it does not go.”
As with halfway, become tired, in him whom you speak

“[so] [u]. Someone it is in side?”

In order with to search, you had heard.


“Well, it is not. Now, the house.”


Don't you think? “so. and”


That piercing you release, you said.
No.15 by [yu] or C (30♀OY19BH) 08/03/1721: 49
It is lie!
As for the lamp, it was not attached to that room.

[dokoniiru]


15 minutes later, in addition you telephoned.


Don't you think? “it goes from now”


“You obtain!?”


“It is troubled?”


“Well.”


“And the [tsu] [pa] it does not go”


“It is which”


When it goes, as for being troubled being understood, the [ru]. When so, you want to say.
When you want making be troubled.

Cornering my love?

It is different. There is no such romantic love.


It will leave. His person exists in me who cannot express love honestly and the [chi] [ya] is not good.


I the separation well decided that he is made free.
No.16 by [yu] or C (30♀OY19BH) 08/03/1721: 56
After that, I without calling at all, saying nothing, went out from before that.


1 days being long, being long, remembering him impulsively instantaneously, you are moved to tears. Such a day continued.


The person who is accustomed to the favorite truly.
There is no such certain story in such a me.

So, before becoming lowest yourself.
The kind of feeling I there is no I.


It is accustomed to also such a thing, certainly. Unnoticed, it had been about that 3 months will pass.
No.17 by [yu] or C (30♀OY19BH) 08/03/1722: 04
Day climbs, morning comes, day sinks, the darkness comes.

Everyday, it was such repetition.

Even the room which directs the eye the around it was not.
In me who unilaterally cut off communication, he less than 1 times gave communication.


So. that is that answering.


The sign where the person comes to a certain day entryway, was felt. How the footprint which remains without.
Postal delivery?
Newspaper house?
It seems that none is applicable, the strange feeling.


It probably is who.


It kept forgetting so, while passing normal every day, such a thing.
No.18 by [yu] or C (30♀OY19BH) 08/03/1722: 08
By your to at this time, being true yourself or being something where [kokoro] which is refracted bears?.

Yet abruptness and others it is not that.



Ping pong.



The chime sounded.


In addition, the newspaper it probably is some inducement.

“It is” and it is who depending, the entryway was opened with feeling.


I to see from the foot was surprised.


It was he.
No.19 by [yu] or C (30♀OY19BH) 08/03/1813: 29
“It is you. how the red sandal wood”


He said with the coldhearted eye.


'Some thing?'You thought in the head, but indicating what, you did not know whether you say.


Meaning is not recognized.

“We is tormented with something, it is. If it goes out, erase entirely! If you say nothing, having tried probably to become aware once upon a time, however you have been patient, it does not withstand anymore,”


That face which is warped in pain.

I did what??


Simply. from that day, saying nothing, goes out the husband… who



Being what and what!?



Meaning was not recognized.


“Just a little waiting. I did what? What is done, passing, the [yu] [u]?”
It was not understood truly.


“What you have pretended ignorance is, the [tsu]!”
No.20 by [yu] or C (30♀OY19BH) 08/03/2211: 34
For he to say, here you became aware recently in change of appearance, it seems.


The mails which by the post are being opened, it reaches, can open the rubbish and reaches, there was a sign where someone comes to the entryway.

When you return home to the night and attach the lamp you say that the silent telephone of non notification comes.


In me, it was not in memory.

'The [tsu] which is not I!'

So, saying, it makes believe, there was no meaning.

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